Ironman is just 37 days away, and I’m a crazy nutcase.
I’m questioning my sanity for getting myself caught up in this mess in the first place, but since I’m stuck with it, I also have constant conflicts running through my brain. Am I overtrained or undertrained? Or neither? Do I take a rest day or squeeze every last hour of training in before taper begins? Will the slow and discouraging workouts I’ve had recently pay dividends or come back to bite me in the ass on race day? Will I have a rock solid nutrition and execution plan in place before race day? Do I shoot for the moon with my goals or dial them down to take some of the pressure off? CAN I DO THIS?!?!?
The lovely Katie wrote a very similar post on this yesterday (why do people always read my mind and then steal my ideas?!?) and it’s something I’ve talked about with her and others in recent days and weeks. I’m so anxious about this and all the other things going on in my life that I don’t sleep well and am tired for workouts and don’t perform at the level I’d like and this starts the whole cycle over again. I know some of this is normal, but it’s a far cry from the confidence and strength I had earlier in the season.
It doesn’t help that I watch friends training for this race and others and see them doing what seems like so much more than I am and then I feel like I need to cram and I have all these “what if” attacks about things I wish I’d been doing all along and I just feel like I might get to race day and regret not giving it more.
Trainwreck. I KNOW.
I posted about mantras a few weeks back, and I have to keep reminding myself of those little things to get me through workouts. Watching course previews and plenty of inspirational YouTube videos helps too.
I appreciate the “you can do it!” encouragment you all give me, but in a more practical sense, what do you do when you start falling apart several weeks out? Mantras, training strategies, sleeping tips and offers for hypnosis all welcome.